Seek First

As a new wife, I am learning things almost everyday about what it means to be a wife. To not only live with a boy (not my dad or brother), but how to love someone like I never have before. I was blessed with godly parents and they have always been open with Ben and I about their marriage. And I have heard sermons and read books and heard from other experienced couples, but there are some things you just don't get until you just jump right in.

I was used to doing things a certain way. Laundry, cooking (or lack of), cleaning, organizing, decorating, finances, holidays, etc. Zach does those same things a little different. Neither way is right or wrong. We've had to figure out what works for us. Who is going to do what and how are we going to merge two lives together and make a new family. This "merge" is bound to involve some change for both of us. Sometimes(most of the time), change (big or small) is not easy for me. I'm learning to put "us" first and not "me" and what I think or want. I'm not very good at it yet, but I am trying.

The desire of my heart is truly for us to do what is best for us (in line with God's will) in every decision that we make, even when it involves a some give and take from each of us. Or when it means changing what I thought I wanted. I'm reading (and rereading) Stormie Omartian's "Power of a Praying Wife" and last night one of the verses that she used was “Seek ye first the kingdom of God.” Matthew 6:33 and today on one of the blogs I read, the verse was the same. I'm thinking that He is trying to tell me something. It's not about me. Seek first the kingdom of God. Every area of our life we have to seek Him first. In that same devotion she later asks the question "Are there things is He asking me to put aside for now?" Hmmm.